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Live As You Dream: ALONE

Jul 25 '13

Im Fucking Sad

I feel like the only reason she sticks around are for these damn rps. 

I feel like she doesn’t trust me enough to call when she is down

I feel like I cant have bad days because I need to be there for her

I feel like Im going to just watch her slip away

I feel like yelling to the world, FUCKING DO IT. OFF YOURSELF! DON’T LET ME SIT HERE CONSTANTLY WORRYING THAT THIS IS GOING TO BE THE LAST DAY, THAT THIS IS THE LAST THING TO SEND YOU OVER THE EDGE. GO FUCKING DIE SO I CAN GET THE HURT FULL FORCE BUT KNOW YOUR AT PEACE.

I feel like my parents are expecting this out of me every single damn day.

I CANT DO THIS RIGHT NOW. 

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

IM SO UPSET AND FUCKING DEPRESSED IM NOT EVEN SURE WHAT IM WRITING.

Jul 4 '13

They dont work

These new blades dont fucking cut. They dont work. They dont work.

Im going back to the old ones. I cant do this.

Not when every fucking thing theve said is a LIE.

Jun 29 '13

im not taking it anymore

im using my box cutter

im sick of being the useless one

more scars will be added tonight

and to think i tried giving it up

Jun 29 '13

I think … I think im going to

it hurts to much

Jun 29 '13

just one

just one cant hurt right?

just one doesnt make me a failure right?

Jun 29 '13

I want too 

so bad

Jun 29 '13
Jun 29 '13

UGH i want to sleep.

push this away

burry it with the rest

but i cant

ithurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts

make it stop. 

please… .

please  …

Jun 29 '13

you were just trying to get rid of me weren’t you?

im a bother.

you cant talk to me

i break so easily

but i dont let it show

i wish i could talk to you the way i want to

but you would break

so I suck it up

take the punches

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

Jun 29 '13

im hurt

and pissed

and i dont know what to do anymore

i want to sleep

put it all behind me

but i cant bring myself to stop